Selfish, Stuck, and Still Searching: How I'm Learning to Lower My Resistance to God
A honest look at the stop-start cycle of faith — knowing what draws you closer to God, and still struggling to make it stick.
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The Walk
Faith and walking with God — Scripture studies, honest questions, and reflections on suffering and hope from a nurse practitioner's vantage point.
From Broken Open to Built Out
### The Walk | Part 3 of 3
Once something broke open in me earlier this year, I had a decision to make.
I could let it be a moment — feel it, maybe talk about it, and then slowly drift back to the same patterns I'd always had. I'
Something Broke
The Walk | Part 2 of 3
Rachel wanted me to go to church with her.
I went. The church she attended was expressive in ways I wasn't used to. People raised their hands. There was speaking in tongues. I don't say that critically — it just wasn&
The Long Road Home
Part 1 of 3
"For I do not understand what I am doing, because I do not practice what I want to do, but I do what I hate." — Romans 7:15 (CSB)
I don't remember the day I was saved.
I know the approximate age.
Being nice is a poor diagnostic indicator
A clinical saying from a hospital dictation room opens a raw conversation about suffering, eternity, and what C.S. Lewis and Paul knew that medicine can't explain.
Quantity, Quality, and the King
A nurse practitioner's perspective on letting go — what long-term acute care has taught me about extending life, measuring it, and trusting the King with our days.
The Keeper of the Records
A Genesis 2:4 study on the Hebrew word toledot — and what LitRPG Systems reveal about the God who doesn't just track us, but breathes on us.
Finding the Tone: When "Fine" Isn't in Tune
TL;DR: I had the career, the gear, and the home—but the music of my life was out of key. It took returning to a daily walk with Jesus to realize I wasn't looking for a new hobby or a better instrument; I was looking for the
The Sound of a Resonant Life
In music, resonance happens when one vibration wakes another. As this journal begins, I'm seeking a life that resonates with the heart of God.